this whole weekend has been actually pretty good-food wise. Kept it under 500c friday. I went to yoga in the morning, ran for 2 hours in the afternoon and a cycle class at night. Saturday I probably ate around 1,000c. Yoga agin in the morning, and I did this body pump class at night. It was really tiring. It was hard to keep up with these machines. Seriously these ladies were so fit- made me look like a fool (hah) but it was really fun. Today i had an apple for breakfast then went to the gym and ran 7 miles, then worked on my stomach. I'm just going to stay in my room and avoid the kitchen until i want dinner. which will be a cup of vegetables and a 2 oz. piece of chicken. i've been by myself a lot recently so I haven't had anyone on my back about eating and exercising. The people at my gym all know me because I'm there so much. It's funny actually. They are always encouraging my workouts and telling me I look good. I don't feel it though. I still feel huge. disgusting. Im probably always going to feel this way. Whatever. Im not happy with the scale. at all. But i guess it will get there, hopefully. Monday is back to my one day of fasting one day of eating. I do that Mon-thurs and then friday-sun i eat everyday. i don't really have any other exciting news. my life is boring. filled with school work and meal planning. its just so weird to me that my life literally evolves around food. what am i going to eat today (or not eat). how long am i going to have to exercise to burn this off... blah blah blah. sometimes it gets to be too much. but.. it is my life.