still

breakfast: apple with peanut butter lunch: nothing dinner: chicken ceasar salad & apple sauce snacks: chex mix i feel absolutely terrible for eating chef mix. although i didn't eat too much today, i still feel disgusting and fat. still haven't gone to the gym. i think i am going to wait until friday to go since i still don't feel 100% better. i have been so unhappy lately. and let me tell you, it fucking sucks. tomorrow I'm going to have an apple and peanut butter before class again, and salad for dinner. no snacking this time either. ugh. i need a job too. badly. something that'll take my mind off everything. and food. i need a buddy. and a fat blunt.